FEAR.
In the past, when I heard people narrate their experiences about death of a close family member or friend, relative etc, I dint really understand what they were going through. As long as it wasn’t happening to me, well, it wasn’t that big of a deal. Well, fact is, this will happen to everyone (for now). Death. Either death of a someone you ‘love/cherish’ or death of self.
It does happen and it has happened to my brother. I was shocked. The fear was so immense I couldn’t move, couldn’t talk couldn’t eat or drink. I have experienced fear before but this fear was life the mother of all fears! It was so real that my whole body was aching! I had panic attacks, I was sweating like crazy! My heart beat so fast I thought I was gonna have a heart attack. I was literally exploding, on top of this fear; I even feared this very fear! Really insane!
Watch out for part 4 where I shall be telling you how I dealt with this fear. The fear of death.
I will wait for part 4 -
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