Well, in my sleeping room is a pile of clothes that i have not ironed for some time due to laziness and procrastinating. I have for some time just been pushing this task forward as i do not like ironing clothes. The points i see within this reality that i am currently experiencing are:
•Allowing and accepting myself to define the act of ironing by disliking it in the context polarity.
•Allowing and accepting myself to have a dislike towards ironing clothes.
•Allowing and accepting myself to separate myself from the task of ironing.
•Allowing and accepting myself to be lazy.
•Allowing and accepting myself to procrastinate.
Self-forgiveness application.
•I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to define the act of ironing through disliking it in the context of polarity.
•I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to have a dislike towards ironing clothes.
•I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to separate myself from the act of ironing clothes.
•I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be lazy.
•I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to procrastinate.
Self-corrective action:
When I see myself procrastinating or becoming lazy, I stop, I breathe, I do not allow myself to participate in procrastination or laziness. Instead I take self-responsibility by completing my tasks on time.
So,
Are you a person that is looking for education that is not available at schools and universities?
Would you like to take a journey into the deepest core of you as a human being as you currently exist?
Would you like to learn how and why you think, experience emotions and feelings, make decisions and how to align it all so that you’re in charge of your life?
Join us at: www.desteniiprocess.com
Would you like to support and see heaven on earth manifest in reality?
Find out how your vote will count at: www.equalmoney.org
Would you like to share your views about the current reality in our world?
Stop by at: www.desteni.co.za
VALUE LIFE.
Oneness and Equality HERE.
Thursday, 30 June 2011
MY I PROCESS
MY I PROCESS
First i start by taking a full breath. I slowly bring some of the past moments here.
And so now here it is, my process of writing myself to freedom. Well, I begun watching and downloading lots of desteniproductions videos on YouTube sometime last year, early last year. At this point in time I was struggling to make my financial ends meet. But I did have time to watch very many videos and even tried out the self-forgiveness process on my own before starting the DIP course. I was so much interested in learning through the support of the DIP team. I did struggle a lot in the beginning as I viewed SF as a completely new language that I must learn; I knew I should redefine my current words so I’d have an effective SF process. Thing is, in as much as I had gathered lots of SF information from desteniproductions, this did not make it any easier for me, I could go like: I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to uuuuhhhhmmm……………………………………….and past that, my mind just went blank, and this actually drove me to a state where I kind of gave up on this process for some time. Up till that moment, I did not fully comprehend why I couldn’t find the words to use.
Then I joined the DIP online course thinking that all is going to be easier. For sure I did find the tools offered in this course very useful to me and they did also help me with the SF language; now I could find the words to finish my sentences. My lessons one and two were like `a piece of cake` then came lesson 3 and at this time more than ever, I found myself coming up with enough excuses as to why I wasn’t dedicating myself to finishing my work on time. I could do SF just a page a day and would tell myself it’s enough for the day and that I am very tired. I wasn’t working; i had all the time to read and finish my assignment on time and even do extra SF sessions effectively. I became lazy, I procrastinated and with time, the DIP course material was accumulating and I still escaped doing something with an excuse. So I started becoming angry towards myself, I felt guilty for wasting so much time, I felt disappointed in myself. Within, I was a tornado of thoughts, feelings and emotions. Sometimes I was literally slapping myself and going like ‘’wake up Carolyne’’. I applied SF on some points and others I did not because I felt it was too much for me to handle. I could start with SF point and soon after I got bored and switched my attention to other things (of less importance). All this were just forms of distraction and I knew this but I was just too lazy to act. At some point, I did SF just to complete my assignment and not actually as a self-support tool. For some time, I just stopped completely doing my DIP with the excuse that ‘’I need to gather myself and focus’’. Deep down within myself, I know that my problem is just laziness and procrastinating.
It has been a pattern for me to work best under pressure and in the last minute. This time I produce the best results. Like I remember back in college, I would study for my exam just the night before the said exam and later on scoring very good grades. With time, I accepted this pattern to be me and hence I procrastinated until the last minute. I also know that I am always overwhelmed by new things, be it new information, new situations, new environments etc but after some time, this excitement wears out and off I go to find my next exiting thing. Like for example, I was very good in music and playing piano and recorder in high school and so later I asked my partner to buy me a piano, which he did plus books, and after the piano was here, I lost interest in it. This is a pattern I’ve discovered too in myself.
Despite all this excuses and procrastination, my whole as self is convinced that DIP tools produce far greater results for I have tested for myself despite my inner conflicts. After I saw this picture on Facebook by desteni artists ‘’push oneself to re-birth oneself’’, well there was no turning back. I became more serious in my self-application through SF. I started working on the problems I had been and still facing one breath at a time.
Points I saw within this:
•Allowing and accepting myself to fall into laziness.
•Allowing and accepting myself to procrastinate.
•Allowing and accepting myself to believe that I work best in the last minute.
•Allowing and accepting myself to come up with excuses to escape taking self-responsibility.
•Allowing and accepting myself to fall into the trap of repeated patterns.
•Allowing and accepting myself to identify myself with and as a pattern.
•Allowing and accepting myself to be overwhelmed by work while it’s just due to laziness and procrastinating.
•Allowing and accepting myself to be angry, guilty and defeated by my work.
•Allowing and accepting myself to desire for something and the soon after lose all interest in the same thing I desired.
•Allowing and accepting myself to separate myself from my current reality.
•Allowing and accepting myself to live in the past as memories and pictures instead of being here in every moment of breath.
•Allowing and accepting myself to accept self-defeat.
•Allowing and accepting myself to have inner conflict between myself and the mind.
•Allowing and accepting myself not to be HERE in every moment of breath.
Self-forgiveness:
•Allowing and accepting myself to fall into laziness.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fall into laziness
•Allowing and accepting myself to procrastinate.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to procrastinate.
•Allowing and accepting myself to believe that I work best in the last minute.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that I work best in the last minute.
Etc
Self-corrective statements:
•Any moment I see myself procrastinating, I stop, I breathe and take self-responsibility by doing my work here in the very moment.
•Any moment find myself falling into laziness, I stop, I breath I do not accept and allow myself to fall into laziness or participate in doing activities that lead me into laziness.
Etc.
This is my journey so far
So,
Are you a person that is looking for education that is not available at schools and universities?
Would you like to take a journey into the deepest core of you as a human being as you currently exist?
Would you like to learn how and why you think, experience emotions and feelings, make decisions and how to align it all so that you’re in charge of your life?
Join us at: www.desteniiprocess.com
Would you like to support and see heaven on earth manifest in reality?
Find out how your vote will count at: www.equalmoney.org
Would you like to share your views about the current reality in our world?
Stop by at: www.desteni.co.za
VALUE LIFE.
Oneness and Equality HERE.
First i start by taking a full breath. I slowly bring some of the past moments here.
And so now here it is, my process of writing myself to freedom. Well, I begun watching and downloading lots of desteniproductions videos on YouTube sometime last year, early last year. At this point in time I was struggling to make my financial ends meet. But I did have time to watch very many videos and even tried out the self-forgiveness process on my own before starting the DIP course. I was so much interested in learning through the support of the DIP team. I did struggle a lot in the beginning as I viewed SF as a completely new language that I must learn; I knew I should redefine my current words so I’d have an effective SF process. Thing is, in as much as I had gathered lots of SF information from desteniproductions, this did not make it any easier for me, I could go like: I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to uuuuhhhhmmm……………………………………….and past that, my mind just went blank, and this actually drove me to a state where I kind of gave up on this process for some time. Up till that moment, I did not fully comprehend why I couldn’t find the words to use.
Then I joined the DIP online course thinking that all is going to be easier. For sure I did find the tools offered in this course very useful to me and they did also help me with the SF language; now I could find the words to finish my sentences. My lessons one and two were like `a piece of cake` then came lesson 3 and at this time more than ever, I found myself coming up with enough excuses as to why I wasn’t dedicating myself to finishing my work on time. I could do SF just a page a day and would tell myself it’s enough for the day and that I am very tired. I wasn’t working; i had all the time to read and finish my assignment on time and even do extra SF sessions effectively. I became lazy, I procrastinated and with time, the DIP course material was accumulating and I still escaped doing something with an excuse. So I started becoming angry towards myself, I felt guilty for wasting so much time, I felt disappointed in myself. Within, I was a tornado of thoughts, feelings and emotions. Sometimes I was literally slapping myself and going like ‘’wake up Carolyne’’. I applied SF on some points and others I did not because I felt it was too much for me to handle. I could start with SF point and soon after I got bored and switched my attention to other things (of less importance). All this were just forms of distraction and I knew this but I was just too lazy to act. At some point, I did SF just to complete my assignment and not actually as a self-support tool. For some time, I just stopped completely doing my DIP with the excuse that ‘’I need to gather myself and focus’’. Deep down within myself, I know that my problem is just laziness and procrastinating.
It has been a pattern for me to work best under pressure and in the last minute. This time I produce the best results. Like I remember back in college, I would study for my exam just the night before the said exam and later on scoring very good grades. With time, I accepted this pattern to be me and hence I procrastinated until the last minute. I also know that I am always overwhelmed by new things, be it new information, new situations, new environments etc but after some time, this excitement wears out and off I go to find my next exiting thing. Like for example, I was very good in music and playing piano and recorder in high school and so later I asked my partner to buy me a piano, which he did plus books, and after the piano was here, I lost interest in it. This is a pattern I’ve discovered too in myself.
Despite all this excuses and procrastination, my whole as self is convinced that DIP tools produce far greater results for I have tested for myself despite my inner conflicts. After I saw this picture on Facebook by desteni artists ‘’push oneself to re-birth oneself’’, well there was no turning back. I became more serious in my self-application through SF. I started working on the problems I had been and still facing one breath at a time.
Points I saw within this:
•Allowing and accepting myself to fall into laziness.
•Allowing and accepting myself to procrastinate.
•Allowing and accepting myself to believe that I work best in the last minute.
•Allowing and accepting myself to come up with excuses to escape taking self-responsibility.
•Allowing and accepting myself to fall into the trap of repeated patterns.
•Allowing and accepting myself to identify myself with and as a pattern.
•Allowing and accepting myself to be overwhelmed by work while it’s just due to laziness and procrastinating.
•Allowing and accepting myself to be angry, guilty and defeated by my work.
•Allowing and accepting myself to desire for something and the soon after lose all interest in the same thing I desired.
•Allowing and accepting myself to separate myself from my current reality.
•Allowing and accepting myself to live in the past as memories and pictures instead of being here in every moment of breath.
•Allowing and accepting myself to accept self-defeat.
•Allowing and accepting myself to have inner conflict between myself and the mind.
•Allowing and accepting myself not to be HERE in every moment of breath.
Self-forgiveness:
•Allowing and accepting myself to fall into laziness.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fall into laziness
•Allowing and accepting myself to procrastinate.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to procrastinate.
•Allowing and accepting myself to believe that I work best in the last minute.
I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to believe that I work best in the last minute.
Etc
Self-corrective statements:
•Any moment I see myself procrastinating, I stop, I breathe and take self-responsibility by doing my work here in the very moment.
•Any moment find myself falling into laziness, I stop, I breath I do not accept and allow myself to fall into laziness or participate in doing activities that lead me into laziness.
Etc.
This is my journey so far
So,
Are you a person that is looking for education that is not available at schools and universities?
Would you like to take a journey into the deepest core of you as a human being as you currently exist?
Would you like to learn how and why you think, experience emotions and feelings, make decisions and how to align it all so that you’re in charge of your life?
Join us at: www.desteniiprocess.com
Would you like to support and see heaven on earth manifest in reality?
Find out how your vote will count at: www.equalmoney.org
Would you like to share your views about the current reality in our world?
Stop by at: www.desteni.co.za
VALUE LIFE.
Oneness and Equality HERE.
HEAVEN ON EARTH
Many people wonder what an equal money system is and what equal money will help change in our current reality, my answer would be EVERYTHING. So i am just going to make few comparisons of our current money system reality and an equal money system reality:
current money system reality (hell)
• Supports inequality whereby only few elite have power to control the masses.
• Promotes poverty as all have no equal access to money.
• Selfish deceiving leadership as leaders buy power with money.
- Unequal labor that doesn’t support life; where all work in competition to earn money regardless of harming life.
- Barbaric undignified life eg wars, rape, prostitution, child abuse, animal abuse, domestic violence, poverty, forest depletion, drug abuse etc.
- Impractical education that doesn’t support oneself as life; where money determines who one will become and hence no opportunity to direct oneself through taking self-responsibility as one and equal to all as life.
- Promotes struggle in fear and uncertainty about surviving here on earth.
- Root cause of all corruption and all problems associated with corruption.
- Unequal access to energy resources to all.
Equal money system reality. (heaven)
• Here all will have equal money from birth to death and all will have the power to participate freely without control.
• End of poverty as all will have equal and sufficient money from birth to death as a birth right. - No more deceit and abuse of power with money.
• Equal labor towards supporting life as one and equal as self; working towards sustaining all as one and equal as self as life.
• Respectable dignified life for all earthlings; humans, animals, nature, water, plants etc.
• practical education that aims at supporting one towards practical living that will enhance one’s life as well as all life as ONE; taking self-responsibility discover ones true ability as life.
• Will end the fear of survival.
• Equal money system will end all corruption.
• Equal sufficient and abundant energy to all.
Above is just a preview of some of the major world problems with the root cause being unequal access to money. If we all have a look, we are responsible for allowing and accepting a world with unequal money system and hence we are the solution. So, would you like a heaven on earth? I am one vote to supporting an equal money system as a real practical solution to end lots of problems we experience in our world and thus have heaven on earth; you too have one vote, choose HEAVEN on earth or we continue languishing in the HELL of unequal money system.
For more information and elaboration and how you can support an equal money system, visit:
http://www.equalmoney.org/
VALUE LIFE.
Sunday, 12 June 2011
MYJOURNEY INTO DESTENI
MYJOURNEY INTO DESTENI
Having been raised up in a very religious environment-SDA-, I must say I did a really good job in memorizing very many bible verses and reciting them every Saturday in church. I was also very popular in praying using a certain language-Swahili- which many local people couldn’t speak at that time. But as I grew older, and went to boarding school at a very early age, I experienced lots of cruelty from the teachers and older students which made me start to seriously question God. I asked why he let me suffer so much even after I prayed so hard and memorized his holy word which found in the holy book called the bible. Only answers I got after asking were –don’t question God and that God lets others suffer so the ones that don’t suffer can learn from the ones who suffer- but this did not quench my thirst from finding an answer because such answers I got only led me to questioning some more, like for example, why can’t god let others suffer and I be the one to learn from them? i was so young when I joined boarding school about 7 years old I peed in bed, dint know how to clean my clothes nor my body and all this was just too overwhelming for me! All this made me really pray even harder for some kind of satisfying answer from God. I got none.
When I was about 9-10 years old I asked my stepfather how god existed and he told me No he doesn’t exist as a being in the sky but in everything, and this came as a shock to me. I never expected such an answer. I was really scared to offend god by thinking about what my step father had just told me. That very night I had a very scary dream about the late Sai baba after my step father told me about him. I couldn’t sleep the whole night but instead I chose to read material about sai baba. I found this information very interesting. From then onwards, I never looked back. As I grew older I studied lots of materials, read several books, studied the bible but in a different way. The children in school called me names like: weirdo, devil worshipper, crazy child, strange person etc. I read Edgar Cayse books, attended vippassana meditations, did daime (ayyahuasca) read and listened to information from the galactic federation of light, UFO information, Credo Mutwa, Osho, the history of Africa, the history of the universe, the science of stars and so much more all this the quest to find and answer that would quench my thirst for my ultimate questions;
• Who am I?
• Why am I here, what is my role here?
• What is the meaning of life?
• Why am I so many?
I have 4 siblings and my younger brother Israel Cromwel once had an out of body experience (AOB) and when he was back, he told me we are all organic robots, systems designed like computers, zombies and that there’s someone who is controlling us as organic robots and I was perplexed!!! He also told me that we are all one and equal as LIFE, non is greater than the other, to be alive, one must be LIFE, and to be life one must stand as one and equal as all as life because all is LIFE. This to me was too much to comprehend at this moment in time. He also told me to watch the movie THE MATRIX as many times as I can until I understand the role of this movie in details.
So begun my quest to search for some information and meaning about the movie THE MATRIX. This is how I me DESTENI. I listened to a couple of Sunnet Spies videos on YouTube and BANG…this was it for me, after years of searching and studying lots of materials, DESTENI made all this information much more clearer and from there I found very practical information as wells as tools to use in everyday life. My questions have been answered beyond doubt and now I am in a process of discovering myself by applying the tools I am learning from DESTENI. My partner Kurt Schnidrig is supporting me in my process too through paying for my desteni I process online course, At www.desteniiprocess.com .
Having been raised up in a very religious environment-SDA-, I must say I did a really good job in memorizing very many bible verses and reciting them every Saturday in church. I was also very popular in praying using a certain language-Swahili- which many local people couldn’t speak at that time. But as I grew older, and went to boarding school at a very early age, I experienced lots of cruelty from the teachers and older students which made me start to seriously question God. I asked why he let me suffer so much even after I prayed so hard and memorized his holy word which found in the holy book called the bible. Only answers I got after asking were –don’t question God and that God lets others suffer so the ones that don’t suffer can learn from the ones who suffer- but this did not quench my thirst from finding an answer because such answers I got only led me to questioning some more, like for example, why can’t god let others suffer and I be the one to learn from them? i was so young when I joined boarding school about 7 years old I peed in bed, dint know how to clean my clothes nor my body and all this was just too overwhelming for me! All this made me really pray even harder for some kind of satisfying answer from God. I got none.
When I was about 9-10 years old I asked my stepfather how god existed and he told me No he doesn’t exist as a being in the sky but in everything, and this came as a shock to me. I never expected such an answer. I was really scared to offend god by thinking about what my step father had just told me. That very night I had a very scary dream about the late Sai baba after my step father told me about him. I couldn’t sleep the whole night but instead I chose to read material about sai baba. I found this information very interesting. From then onwards, I never looked back. As I grew older I studied lots of materials, read several books, studied the bible but in a different way. The children in school called me names like: weirdo, devil worshipper, crazy child, strange person etc. I read Edgar Cayse books, attended vippassana meditations, did daime (ayyahuasca) read and listened to information from the galactic federation of light, UFO information, Credo Mutwa, Osho, the history of Africa, the history of the universe, the science of stars and so much more all this the quest to find and answer that would quench my thirst for my ultimate questions;
• Who am I?
• Why am I here, what is my role here?
• What is the meaning of life?
• Why am I so many?
I have 4 siblings and my younger brother Israel Cromwel once had an out of body experience (AOB) and when he was back, he told me we are all organic robots, systems designed like computers, zombies and that there’s someone who is controlling us as organic robots and I was perplexed!!! He also told me that we are all one and equal as LIFE, non is greater than the other, to be alive, one must be LIFE, and to be life one must stand as one and equal as all as life because all is LIFE. This to me was too much to comprehend at this moment in time. He also told me to watch the movie THE MATRIX as many times as I can until I understand the role of this movie in details.
So begun my quest to search for some information and meaning about the movie THE MATRIX. This is how I me DESTENI. I listened to a couple of Sunnet Spies videos on YouTube and BANG…this was it for me, after years of searching and studying lots of materials, DESTENI made all this information much more clearer and from there I found very practical information as wells as tools to use in everyday life. My questions have been answered beyond doubt and now I am in a process of discovering myself by applying the tools I am learning from DESTENI. My partner Kurt Schnidrig is supporting me in my process too through paying for my desteni I process online course, At www.desteniiprocess.com .
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