BEATEN BECAUSE OF HER!

Back when I was in Primary school, there was this moment when one of my fellow girl student just came out and pointed me during parade time in the morning. Soon after, the teacher on duty approached me and took me out of the parade line and gave me a beating of my life. I did not understand what exactly was happening at that time amidst the agony of the caning. Its up till later on that i discovered that a the girl who pointed me out just was shifting blame to me of something she had been responsible for. she had left the put on the dormitory lights at a time they were not supposed to be on.

this memory and picture of me being caned really harshely has been lingering in my mind for many years till now. This is what arises in me once this memories and pictures come up in my mind:

• Anger towards the student who falsely accused me.
• Anger towards the techer who badly caned me without excercising fairness.
• dissapointment towards many techers in who physically abuse children Sadness for having been falsely accused.
• Abondonment for having been taken to a boarding school at a very early age.
• sadness for i felt my mother had abandoned me.
• fear towards the teacher who caned me plus fear towards teachers in general for i saw teachers as superior than me.
• I felt inferior compared to the student that falsely accused me.

I still remember this moment vividly as if it happened just yesterday.

Self forgiveness in relation to the above:

• I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to exist and live as a memory ofthe student who falsely accused me of something i did not do many years ago.
• I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to exist as a long time past picture of a teacher beating me for a faulse accusation.

Any moment i find myself living as this meories or pictures that happened long time ago, i stop, i breath, i do not allow myself to participate within such pictures or memories.

• I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to have anger exist withing and as me.
• I forgive myself ro allowing and accepting myself to anger towards the student who falsely accused me.
• I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to till date be angry towards the teacher who punished me for a crime i did not commit.
• I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to have dissapointment exist within and as me.
• I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to define myself as dissapointment towards all teachers because of being beaten by one.
• I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself for defining myself within the context of anger towards teachers.
• I forgive myself for fearing teachers.
• i forgive myself for allowing and accpting myself to have hatred towards teachers.
• i forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to see myself as inferior compared to the teacher and student that falsely accused me.
• i forgive myself for allowing and accpting myself to be angry towards my mother for taking me to boarding school when i was still very young.
• i forgive mayself for allowing and accepting myself have abandonment exist within and as me.
• i forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to define myself within the context of abandonment.
• i forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to have sadness exist within and as me.
• i forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to feel sad towards myself for having been picked on.
• i forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to define myself within the context of sadness.

Any moment i find myself participating within this memory or picture of me being accused by my fellow student and my teacher beating me, i stop, i breath and do not allow myself to participate within this memories or pictures.